disgruntled

was really pretty disgruntled today at the rehersal session. first off was the fact that the male scholars who had received their scholarship 2 years ago found out that an "acknowledgement" of their efforts meant seeing their miniature faces flash past in mere seconds in a powerpoint. with no name and no mention of what they are studying or whatsoever.

now dun for a moment think that wah.. i'm so darn petty and i want my face splashed on every screen in loving tribute for me or something but honestly, when you have been assured by scholarship officers that this is an event worth your parents coming and that your efforts in putting up a talent showcase for them would be duly recognised, then find out that the recognition means leaving you as an aftethought or like a postscript in an event, then honestly i think there's some grounds to be pissed.

it's not asking much just to spend a little time to feature each scholar and at least put their name rite? but NO.. due to the minister's constraints and so on, we must keep the program tight and so on. and guess where to they shave time off?

think it just shows how much they treasure their scholars.. so the 30+ of us ain't shit compared to one minister's timetable. properly recognising the 30 of us also ain't worth shortening the forgettable and sleep-inducing speeches by those big-wigs and other minute prize presentation portions. gee thanks man.

that's not all man. what really makes me motivated to write this is the fact the management decided due to the time shortage that they would cut out a whole portion of the singing segment that our group painstakingly spent much time and energy to practice. so i guess now our efforts also count for moot in lieu of the minister. bearing in mind it was initially your "plea" that we should liven things and show that we have other talents besides studying. bearing in mind most of us could honestly have heck cared this whole ridiculous contrived rubbish and gave shit performances.

but no.. we slogged, we worked hard. honestly i went to practice the torrid jason mraz rap-song over and over again just to get the lyrics rite. everyone from my group slogged hard trying to learn dance moves, confront their fears when singing their solo parts and generally remembering when to pass the mike and so on. the effort was painfully obvious, yet when it came down to the wire, our best efforts were still cut.

honestly, i think this is a terrible way to start things off. not forgetting the people working with us are supposedly the publicity and HR departments. wow.. and this is the reception and treatment we're getting. we put in out best efforts and are shown the door instead. we are told we would be given recognition but are left as afterthoughts in a powerpoint presentation.

well.. heck. this is not meant to be a rant(too bad it is), really wanted to say how much I enjoyed the past few practice sessions with everyone, working together, recording our performances, thinking of manic dance moves, playing lan after everything was wrapped up and having a helluva time. so yeah, heck it lah rite? at least we clearly enjoyed oursevles, we performed for our friends to see and yeah, we had a 4 hour meal after practice today (hehe)

so tommorow will come and go without much to be remembered with.. a dull award presentation which honestly ain't fit for our parents to come.. trying hard to persuade my parents not to turn up.. oh well..