how much is friendship worth?

not too pleased with myself recently cos I've been bumming around and generally doing like nothing much.

went back to camp on monday to see how my understudying was surviving. barely it seems, and i pity him, cos he's been thrust the role of S4 within a week of his arrival and has to oversee Bn Prof Test. add that to the information overload i subjected him to that morning regarding TTD, RID and whatever information both logistics and signals i gleaned from my 1 year @ 3 sig.

then when i realised people like reagan were trapped @ pasir laba due to the exercise and couldn't join me for lunch i decided to scoot home liao. =) so that sums up my second last day in NS. haha

watched V for Vendetta today... got an adrenaline rush at the dominos part, like when you see a masterplan unfold in front of your eyes.. other than that.. think it's an interesting movie. waiting for the may movies actually, what with da vinci, X:3 and MI:3.

other than that? bumming. honestly i'm getting a lil' pissed at myself for my general slacktitude. like when i go out and i see all those smartly dressed office peeps and realised *gasp* some are my friends, then i feel like a worthless piece of ass. hmm.. and it's not like i've got nothing to do.

i've got my skeptics book to read, something i promised God i'd do after the Thailand trip, then there's my room that I still need to pack properly, and then there's the maths i need to revise. yet, I'm mostly trapped at the computer, or sneezing away, or reading and re-reading X-men comics.

and i've been thinking and reflecting.. haha.. well. sometimes i really wonder how much friendship is worth.. and honestly, sometimes when we invest so much and lose the friendship, or feel kena cheated cos nothing is reciprocated.. then.. how would things be?

oh well.. better get on with life.

forgetfulness strikes again!

life has somewhat turned for the worse since I came back..

i managed to lose YET another important item again. this time it's my precious phone.

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ARRGGHHH! that's my life sia! my contacts.. my.. my NEW FREAKING PHONE!

oh well.. left it at the LAN shop carelessly cos I was picking up my mom's call whilst battling some nOobs at dota.. only realised it when i boarded my bus then got off at the next stop, sprinted back to Paradiz within record time.. and found the phone L.O.S.T..

curses to whoever stole my phone.

and thank goodness i didn't take stupid pictures or videos. haha.. Tammygate is STILL the talk of the town. poor girl.

aniwez i NEED everyone's contacts back.. pls pls when you see me on MSN pls do send me your HP no. so i can reconstruct my ailing contact list. so sad man.. that's like 6+ years of frens and impt numbers flushed down the drain. darn darn pain.

realised a lot of peeps have lost their phone. WAH.. so rampant meh? singapore i thought supposed to be a safe country? what happened? phone so nice to steal meh?

now i'm in a dilemna whether to buy a new phone or not.. cos my finances ain't surviving too well after going for tad too many trips.. think the Japan trip is also gonna KILL my bank account.. sheesh

oh.. and if things aren't bad enough, my self prophesized "illness" for the Battalion Prof Test has honestly struck me.. i'm REALLY sick and i'm hatin' it. oh... see how tmr lor.

a further buggeration? my fren just told me NYJC passed me over as relief teach cos they think i'm too young. BAH! so sad.

=(

voting for the worst

haha.. check this site out

http://votefortheworst.com/

though i hope it doesn't affect my dear Kat's chances.. yeah.. i have the McPheever!



and honestly, with looks and a voice like this, what's there not to like?

was talking the guang yi regarding our favourite idols this season, and he's shocked that i'm not supporting a black diva like mandisa or lisa like i used to in AI2/3/4... yeah.. Trenyce, La Toya then Vonzell..

truth is, i always thought black = can sing well, but Kat can sang dang well too!

=) ok shall stop the childish chatter.. i flickred pics from thailand trip liao.. not much cos honestly i don't see what there is to take of the neverending alleys od shops and so on.. so there..

back from the land of smiles and fake LV

well.. getting back to reality always sucks.. especially when your major activity over the last few days has been to hunt for bargains all over town and generally just spending money without any qualms..

realised a lot of things along the way.. haha.. thanks to kiat's wise words of wisdoms at times and our argument over religion over one of the dinners.

hmm.. like when I said I couldn't help it that I was pampered.. cos well.. parents always like to keep their children close to them - he just said it takes two hands to clap and perhaps HONESTLY, it is me that is giving off this vulnerability vibe with my childish behaviour and piss poor street smart skills that is part of the cause.. haha... thanks kiat! (i mean it)

aniwez.. had fun, bought lotsa stuff, ate ridiculously cheap food (130baht for a lunch!?!), didn't see a single protested in sight, and generally had quite a full thai experience.. complete with a oft-painful thai massage. =)

can say lots about this.. but judging by how I did part 1/2/3 for taiwan and part 1/2 for tioman and STILL cannot complete them.. i guess I better not venture to embellish on the details this time round..

just some musings:-
1. honestly i cannot differentiate a transvestite/ girl/ girly guy there.. my gosh. seriously. it's like half of the salespeople were transvestites i think. thailand must be severly testosterone deprived or something. i think it has something to do with the language.. cos it's a lil' feminine with the continuous slurs and ka-s and so on..

2. i think MBK beats even Chatuchak in terms of better bargains and overhwelmingly better shopping conditions.. I completely could not do my "surveying the shops" routine at Chatuchak cos it was completely labirithine and massive. plus the weather.. omg.. seriously it became completely unbearable when it was 2 - 3 and honestly we were in no mood for shopping at all no matter how good the bargains were..

and seriously Patpong Market is a shithole where prices are jacked up 3 times and the vendors are so darn aggresive and cut throat.

Chinatown was another wasted trip with most shops posting a "wholesale only" sign. then honestly the stench from the food stalls can KILL at times, especially under the sweltering heat and in the cramped alleyways.

3. i pity people who buy true LV/rolex and so on there.. honestly i think they are just buying the certification of authenticity letter. after the first day, whatever LV product we saw people carrying we were dissing it as fake. haha!

-watching AI5 now-

tioman adventures part 2

Day One, Part 2 - Paya Beach Resort

Little boy complained of being hungry once arriving so we went over to the nearby coffee shop and eyed the Ramly burger stall..honestly i have NEVER eaten a ramly burger in my life since when i was young i never even heard of such a thing and when I got older and saw the stalls i was fraked out by the amount of oil and butter the gleefully slattered. besides, I always bypassed the stalls RIGHT after meals, so it would be an ultimate guilt trip to do so.. but hey, this was for lunch so.. ok lor..

and honestly it's just OK... =)

wenjie suggested going for jungle trekking (?!!) to find a "waterfall" to swim in. HA! we walked for quite awhile and found a smallish rockfall with tons of spider webs strewn across and look suspiciously like the Brunei landscape that nearly doomed my detail as we struggled to walk along the river bed to our checkpoints. initially i couldn't believe that was the so called lauded waterfall as said in brochures so we pushed on a white-and-red tape marked trail up the hill to try and find a "waterfall".. after realising it was turning more and more into somewhat of a stiflingly hot, mosquito-plagued navex.. we turned back and just took pictures at the "rockfall". -_-



after the misaventure at the rockfall, we decided to stick to the beaches and explore them fully. we were delighted to find a sandbar from the beach linking to a small island out in the sea that was only slightly submerged due to high tide and allowed for a safe and relaxing swim around the beach of the small island. was very cool relaxing in the shallow waters, soaking up the sun and attempting to swim normally with goggles. one thing i quickly realised about swimming in salt water was that it SUCKED. i kept rising up to spit out salty water and after awhile my nose was like stinging.. but oh well.. diff experience and the weather, nice waves, idyllic location largely compensated for that. very beautiful beach.

night was mainly eating a unexpectedly sumptuous dinner then exploring the rest of the small beaches and finally going to the jetty to enjoy the sea breeze and temperatures dipped...

hmm. will update soon... forgetting stuff liao

questions

things i wanna ask God when i see Him..

1. what happened to my understudy?

2. where did the blasted Akhber misplace my Clearance Form?

3. where is the 6 cartons of beer that has gone surprisingly missing? don't tell me I have to pay for it lor.. sighz..

4. when will Derui's karmic retribution strike him for all the mean things he has done and said?

5. WHY do i get all the karmic retribution for everything i say about little boy?

stupid DOO duty... stupid Jurong camp.. wish I was outta it...

oh well.. last DOO duty's the only consolation. pooh

tioman adventures

Day One, Part One

woke up irritatingly early to catch the bus to tioman.. to our delight it turns out that our "bus" only has 3 passengers.. hee, so we got like a luxury cab to fetch us all the way to mersing.. took real fast with the driver whizzing down the country lanes at whacked out speeds, bumping us all along... realised as I looked at the scenery that malaysia's landscape was pretty similar to the terrain we trained in taiwan and brunei.. there were some parts that were like.. "wow.. i attacked a similiar objective in R.O.C.." hmmm..

aniwez.. we quickly reached and were accosted by the people there whom i initially mistook their friendliness as moneyminded calculativeness.. well.. turns out the people are really pretty nice and guided us along the way.. ate some paltry brnuch at the kopitiam there where i realised little boy was gonna scrimp and save and be healthy at the same time for the whole trip.. wah.. i mean, i thought trips were meant to like relax, pig out a little and be decadent then regret when the whole thing ended.. but apparent little boy din think so.. haha.. he was doing push ups in the chalet room and basically eating very health consciously.. hmmz

then was the interminable wait for a speedboat which turned out to be a joke for the initial 15 minutes of travel cos it was chugging along so slowly that even a sampan would have bypassed us. speed.. yeah rite. but then after it passed the low tide area things became much better and we were like on a neverending portion of a rollercoaster.. but hey... quite amazing that we all managed to fall asleep still..

so the seawater changed from murky yellow to sparkling blue then crystalline green as we approached the Paya Jetty and disembarked.. first thing i realised about Tioman is that it reminded me of the island in Lost.. and it was so different from like Langkawi.. which i was sorta expecting.. cos i thought can traverse from village to village pretty easily.. but NO.. the island is inhabited only at the beachfronts and each beach is pretty much closed up where to get to another village required quite a tiring jungle trek which wasn't very fun. so yeah.. we were effectively trapped at Paya Beach. -_-

stayed at Paya Beach Resort, where the rooms were really pretty disappointing.. i mean u look at the website photo and it ain't too bad..
but then when u actually look at it.. you realise the wall is paper thin such that you here people walking around your chalet at night, then the window is sealed using TALC.. and the TV has one miserable channel and the toilet is always wet. and small. the sink is like going to collapse and i saw a cockroach on the second night. sigh.. oh well.. pay peanuts get peanuts lo

aiyah.. tired liao.. part 2 coming up another time..

irritated with reality tv

wah.. dashed home after a nice time relaxing and unwinding in tioman to catch up on my reality tv..

and was left with a bitter taste in my mouth sia.. honestly it defies logic how america can vote a juvenile looking twerp of a kevin corvais into final 12 over more talented peeps like gedeon. wow. seriously i'm getting very sick of kevin. i fast forward my recording when it reaches his performance cos i cannot stand his constipated looks and robotic gestures whilst singing. gosh.. the eye twitch..

then poor ayla brown got kicked off as a "shocker" boot over underwhelming peeps like Paris and Melissa... cos you could see she really tried her best.. work the hardest and well.. was getting interesting... i don't get it. this is the jealousy anti-vote? people can't stand it that she's too good in stuff that she does and hence neglect to vote for her?

oh well. will blog about tioman soon.. hee

going away...

going off to tioman for a few days to unwind, relax.. and actually find something to do amidst progressive boring days.. haha. hopefully this will end the dearth of photos plaguing my blog..

was planning the bangkok trip too and honestly I'm getting a little confused with finding the correct hotel.. kiat wants a cheap cheap option so he can spend more money at shopping but i want something err.. a little more exclusive and boutique?

thought this was nice: La Residence



but.. a little far for transport.. and not dirt cheap.. sianz.. aiyah lemme explore a bit more lor..

and obviously, I have changed the design of my blog after being really sian of the default design.. think it looks quite cool. hoenstly i dun understand the theme as well, what with the .93 9/10 but.. think the colour scheme and the layout looks nice so i grabbbed it. maybe when i really bo-liao one day I'd actually create a design.

the endless wait

i just realised news of admissions in school would only be available from 30th march instead of the "march" that i was thinking of... -_- which means more waiting, more having to forestall people asking me where I'm going to study and more feeling really worried and wondering whether ANY schools would accept me or would I need to apply to local unis and do the tedious process again.. not saying there's anything wrong with local unis... but considering it took quite a bit of effort to get an overseas scholarship and to apply to so many unis overseas.. i'd be a little.. well maybe very pissed. and yeah.. my ego would come crashing to the ground =(

went for the princeton interview on saturday and before that I was sweating, worried about my ang-moh having deterioriated through the course of NS, worried I would start all the colloqial-isms and talk army talk... well.. i DID talk army talk, cos yeah, many experiences there have shaped my life and my outlook on life currently..

i think it went ok lah.. honestly i soon realised the interview didn't carry much weight cos (i) HONESTLY what's my chance of entering Princeton? hmmm.. (ii) the questions asked were like normal fluff and not to grilling scholarship interview questions like that of PSC (i hated all of the scornful idiots on the board. so what if i didn't know nuts about singapore politicians and the shit!)

oh well aniwez it was a pretty fun interviews.. i like interviews at times cos it forces you to reflect on your life and think of your own views of issues.. like the interviewer was asking me whether I would be at a disadvantage after "resting" my brain during NS for 2 years.. then i realised that actually i was priviledged to have many opportunities in NS to work my brains, analyze stuff, plan events and so on so.. no.. my mind didn't rot in NS as per popular opinion.. it was more like conditioned in other ways...

oh well.. hope things turn out fine =)

updates

- i'm still aching all over from tuesday's tennis.. think it's really a good workout.. FRED! please organise more!! it's fun to be able to dish out some defeats to little boy boy derui who's so darn arrogant over table soccer and pool and badminton... -_-

- roller blading is really fun when you go at critical speed... (ie. the fastest speed that the shitty rental skates allow you to go at before careening off in awkward directions) was really fun skating with my guys from HQ coy and being dragged along by bikes as well as doing the speed skating pushes.. haha.. cool man.

- i might have actually landed a job as relief teacher in one of the JCs.. thank God man... though some things a little tricky cos i actually cannot start work only until 7 april and so on.. so.. yeah, see how this goes lor. haha.. if u wanna know what subject - GP.. haha.. wonder what lin ken would say about this. (a) complain about the unfairness of the whole MOE system and then diss my paltry english standards (b) keel over and faint (c) go his usual "wadever" and sulk whilst making random insults to try get back some pride..

HEE

room improvement

i'm still at it.. walls have been painted, certain shelves have been drilled in etc..

but honestly, i'm getting a little sian of these small memorabilia, cards, letters and the stuff.. takes up a darn lot of space and cannot be stored easily.. feel like throwing away all the small figurines and whatsitnot and keep to my minimalist design...

was motivated today to sort of continue with the sorting out cos my mom remarked cynically that my room resembled a storeroom already, with stacks and stacks and books, notes and files piled up. ok lor... shall hopefully continue tmr..

aniwez, i think i better start looking for a job from recruit soon to tide over the period of april to june, cos looking at the way i am spending, honestly, it's a little scary. dunno what type of job to apply for, a little disoriented cos my mind's running in 4 directions, that of planning a trip, settling peripherals like driving, tuition etc, figuring a way to destroy broodmother in dota, and yeah.. my uni application results..

so i dunno.. i feel my weakness lies in the fact i can stare at a impending problem and just get sian of it and bury my head in the sand.. not too good eh.

better sleep liao.