yay! one more week to my b-day! (now is THAT shameless advertising or what..)
aniwez.. i wanna come up with a wishlist so either people can buy me the stuff, or they'll give me sufficient money for me to buy the stuff.. =) yeah, I need to save my NS allowances to have a fun trip overseas.. probably to europe...
speaking of which, you'd be amazed that even though 4 officers might be going on trip, only one is planning currently. why? cos one wants to be safety, one to be supervising, one to be participant and who's left to be conducting?... you get the idea.
better start brainstorming what I want... need to sleep for now.. kunz liao!
Wednesday, November 30, 2005
shades of grey
you know what i hate about the weather these days?
it's in this perpetual indecisive mode, constantly deliberating whether to rain or not.. hence the sky is partly overcast with patches of grey here and there...
then when u wanna go out, it rains.
when you get sick of this phenomenon and stick at home, then it never rains at all.
bleah.
worst thing is it makes you procrastinate on not exercising. oh well, i'd better. i need to clear my IPPT this month lest I kena not getting promoted.
I hate it when people go around saying officer sure get gold one lah, sure pass this and that what lah! since when did officer translate to wonderman? superman?
sorry that I had to shatter this precious myth, SAF.
oh well.
it's in this perpetual indecisive mode, constantly deliberating whether to rain or not.. hence the sky is partly overcast with patches of grey here and there...
then when u wanna go out, it rains.
when you get sick of this phenomenon and stick at home, then it never rains at all.
bleah.
worst thing is it makes you procrastinate on not exercising. oh well, i'd better. i need to clear my IPPT this month lest I kena not getting promoted.
I hate it when people go around saying officer sure get gold one lah, sure pass this and that what lah! since when did officer translate to wonderman? superman?
sorry that I had to shatter this precious myth, SAF.
oh well.
Sunday, November 27, 2005
there's something about harry...
seriously.. i was disappointed.
was going "what the.." at many parts of the show, pissing off Han and Harris (who apparently didn't read the books)
why so many unneeded GLARING inconsistencies with the book? I mean, I understand the need for compressing parts and so on, but some inconsistencies were downright pointless lor.
1. since when did Beauxbatons turn into NOT ONLY a all-girls school, but also an all-Veela school? sheesh... and speaking on that matter, since when did Durmstang turn all male?!
2. can someone explain the ridiculous scene at the Death Eater's attack on the Quidditch World Cup? ok, I don't mind if you take away Winky (cos elfs are seriously annoying), but honestly!? Harry can just be left there like that!!?
3. what the hell happened to my favourite maze? where's the sphinx?! i paid $9 to see the bloody sphinx and only got to see stupid entagling roots and hedges that squeezed you in.
4. did Dumbledore have a character transplant or something? since when did he get so agitated and whatever?! same goes for Hermione and his befuddling love preferences.. gosh
and then comes the point I don't get. you say you wanna shorten the movie, yet some scenes are stretched inexorably long for no particular reason.
1. what's the point of harry bringing the hungarian horntail on a tour-de-Hogwarts?
2. what's the point of staying in the maze so long if all it will do is just to entangle them!?
3. why the fricking long underwater scenes!?
SERIOUSLY.
oh well.. the movie had some reprieve, namely the scene of Malfoy being turned into a ferret, Myrtle cosying up with Harry and... bleah.. that's it...
and is it me or when the reviewers said the show turned darker... they meant it LITERALLY? why was the whole movie so literally dark that you couldn't see the faces well at first?! maybe it's the theatre I dunno..
but overall, bleah.
was going "what the.." at many parts of the show, pissing off Han and Harris (who apparently didn't read the books)
why so many unneeded GLARING inconsistencies with the book? I mean, I understand the need for compressing parts and so on, but some inconsistencies were downright pointless lor.
1. since when did Beauxbatons turn into NOT ONLY a all-girls school, but also an all-Veela school? sheesh... and speaking on that matter, since when did Durmstang turn all male?!
2. can someone explain the ridiculous scene at the Death Eater's attack on the Quidditch World Cup? ok, I don't mind if you take away Winky (cos elfs are seriously annoying), but honestly!? Harry can just be left there like that!!?
3. what the hell happened to my favourite maze? where's the sphinx?! i paid $9 to see the bloody sphinx and only got to see stupid entagling roots and hedges that squeezed you in.
4. did Dumbledore have a character transplant or something? since when did he get so agitated and whatever?! same goes for Hermione and his befuddling love preferences.. gosh
and then comes the point I don't get. you say you wanna shorten the movie, yet some scenes are stretched inexorably long for no particular reason.
1. what's the point of harry bringing the hungarian horntail on a tour-de-Hogwarts?
2. what's the point of staying in the maze so long if all it will do is just to entangle them!?
3. why the fricking long underwater scenes!?
SERIOUSLY.
oh well.. the movie had some reprieve, namely the scene of Malfoy being turned into a ferret, Myrtle cosying up with Harry and... bleah.. that's it...
and is it me or when the reviewers said the show turned darker... they meant it LITERALLY? why was the whole movie so literally dark that you couldn't see the faces well at first?! maybe it's the theatre I dunno..
but overall, bleah.
two adaptations of love
the wedding
the church hall is decked out in white sashes and has an overall garden-ish feeling... it's all so beautiful and pure... the bride slowly glides in with her train sashaying behind her, her face radiant with joy. the groom waits at the front, his eyes beaming... such is the image of pure, intense love.
Love that was what God had intended for it to be. Love that gives forth a sense of exhilaration and happiness, where onlookers feel a deep sense of gratification when the bride and groom exchange their vows with a sense of assurance. the beauty of true love.
the streets
guys gushing about get girls and their short skirts, making spastic resolutions about needing to get laid by the end of the year. guys talking bout pre marital sex as though it is a natural progression of emotions and feelings, and "you just cannot help it when the mood sets in"... couples dressed to the nines hanging outside China Black waiting to enter the blaring smoky soundbox and enjoy whatever frivolity it entailed
people say this is a natural progression of Love. it is the freedom to Love the way you want to. it is a societal norm. INDEED it is, considering how advertisers and movies akin have been pounding this into our brains...
-----
i might be honestly a prude. My mindsets might be gird-locked, but then again, sometimes I don't think I mind it.
Thing is, what's your definition of true love?
confused, but will hold strong to what I believe.
the church hall is decked out in white sashes and has an overall garden-ish feeling... it's all so beautiful and pure... the bride slowly glides in with her train sashaying behind her, her face radiant with joy. the groom waits at the front, his eyes beaming... such is the image of pure, intense love.
Love that was what God had intended for it to be. Love that gives forth a sense of exhilaration and happiness, where onlookers feel a deep sense of gratification when the bride and groom exchange their vows with a sense of assurance. the beauty of true love.
the streets
guys gushing about get girls and their short skirts, making spastic resolutions about needing to get laid by the end of the year. guys talking bout pre marital sex as though it is a natural progression of emotions and feelings, and "you just cannot help it when the mood sets in"... couples dressed to the nines hanging outside China Black waiting to enter the blaring smoky soundbox and enjoy whatever frivolity it entailed
people say this is a natural progression of Love. it is the freedom to Love the way you want to. it is a societal norm. INDEED it is, considering how advertisers and movies akin have been pounding this into our brains...
-----
i might be honestly a prude. My mindsets might be gird-locked, but then again, sometimes I don't think I mind it.
Thing is, what's your definition of true love?
confused, but will hold strong to what I believe.
Saturday, November 26, 2005
table soccer comps
this week was one whole exercise week...
which meant more nights bumming around in the mess with fellow PCs that weren't involved in the exercise... and the gearing up for table soccer comps that was gonna happen on friday..
seriously i was pretty convinced one of the pair of PCs would win it all, either Derui-Wee Kiat or Noel-Reagan... thou i placed less faith in Noel cos I broke his defence once and scored alot with that =)
and i was proven right lah.. it boiled down to points scoring, and thanks to the thrashings of Cpt Jean/Max and the two MAJs by Noel/Reagan, they won by an overwhelming aggregate.
which pretty much sucks. cos i sorrta lost it for Derui-Kiatz in the first game when he wasn't around. my one hit wonders and tai-kou shots just didn't click (hey.. i'm THAT good at such cheapo shots that I can win with them man)
think it has to do with them practicing against me liaoz =(
cos we fought back the second round against 2IC and LTA Patrick with my ultra cheapo shots against 2IC's simplistic defences.. hee hee..
all these was played with the funny commentary by Cpt Low as well as Shijing with his subtle digs at Noel and his "One-ness with the soccer ball" and Reagan's PUNISHER BALLS..
but methinks actually if u look from afar, it probably looks darn ridiculous to see a bunch of like 10 odd adults grouping over and table excitedly and cheering for different teams... no wonder fred left early..
but hey.. that's the life at the mess...
which meant more nights bumming around in the mess with fellow PCs that weren't involved in the exercise... and the gearing up for table soccer comps that was gonna happen on friday..
seriously i was pretty convinced one of the pair of PCs would win it all, either Derui-Wee Kiat or Noel-Reagan... thou i placed less faith in Noel cos I broke his defence once and scored alot with that =)
and i was proven right lah.. it boiled down to points scoring, and thanks to the thrashings of Cpt Jean/Max and the two MAJs by Noel/Reagan, they won by an overwhelming aggregate.
which pretty much sucks. cos i sorrta lost it for Derui-Kiatz in the first game when he wasn't around. my one hit wonders and tai-kou shots just didn't click (hey.. i'm THAT good at such cheapo shots that I can win with them man)
think it has to do with them practicing against me liaoz =(
cos we fought back the second round against 2IC and LTA Patrick with my ultra cheapo shots against 2IC's simplistic defences.. hee hee..
all these was played with the funny commentary by Cpt Low as well as Shijing with his subtle digs at Noel and his "One-ness with the soccer ball" and Reagan's PUNISHER BALLS..
but methinks actually if u look from afar, it probably looks darn ridiculous to see a bunch of like 10 odd adults grouping over and table excitedly and cheering for different teams... no wonder fred left early..
but hey.. that's the life at the mess...
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
sky high
gee.. i'm pretty wiped out thanks to Tiger Trail '05 today. though I'm a little miffed with the organisers for not giving sufficient time for fun-runners...
blog about it when I'm a little more focused.. haha.. cos to me it felt like it was an ORD run akin to the last episode of Survivor where the Final 3 will walk past various torches of the fallen "comrades" and reminisce...
so it was quite fun going back to Pasir Laba Training Area, climbing Bajau, E-shape, Kidney, Lam Kiong, BIC, Bunker and reaching Boatshed... remember all the different exercises held there during OCS...
oh well.. then the cruel March-ORD peeps will obviously tell me it's rich of me to talk about ORD when they haven't even started... -_-
aniwez, watch Sky High tonight. and thanks to the absence of movie critic Linken, the movie was generally appreciated and nice to watch (especially without his every-other-minute-disruption of telling us he doesn't 'do' cheesy movies from disney -_-)
it's disney, it's predictable, and it's cheesy. but hey, it's enjoyable... and i don't mind such mindless fun for a change. =)
what powers does edwin have? he can shapeshift into chicken little! =)
blog about it when I'm a little more focused.. haha.. cos to me it felt like it was an ORD run akin to the last episode of Survivor where the Final 3 will walk past various torches of the fallen "comrades" and reminisce...
so it was quite fun going back to Pasir Laba Training Area, climbing Bajau, E-shape, Kidney, Lam Kiong, BIC, Bunker and reaching Boatshed... remember all the different exercises held there during OCS...
oh well.. then the cruel March-ORD peeps will obviously tell me it's rich of me to talk about ORD when they haven't even started... -_-
aniwez, watch Sky High tonight. and thanks to the absence of movie critic Linken, the movie was generally appreciated and nice to watch (especially without his every-other-minute-disruption of telling us he doesn't 'do' cheesy movies from disney -_-)
it's disney, it's predictable, and it's cheesy. but hey, it's enjoyable... and i don't mind such mindless fun for a change. =)
what powers does edwin have? he can shapeshift into chicken little! =)
Sunday, November 20, 2005
jocie guo is a complete retard
i have 3 theories on why jocie guo refuses to show her face...
1. she's way to ashamed of revealing her facing after singing the most ridiculous songs in the century
2. she's actually a music producer's 3 year old daughter. with down syndrome.
3. she's actually so mentally retarded she refuses to let people take pictures of her with a camera as the camera would "capture her spirit"
gee.. you know what really convinced me her IQ is in the levels of negative? the fact that today's newspapers interviewed her about her song title choice and she said "Oh.. since I did a song on mice, I guess the next one would be on cockroaches."
wow. HOW creative. so the next one is on hair lice? bed bugs?
i mean, if my loathing for her was not high enough when she released the asinine "mice love rice" shit, she actually surpasses herself and goes on to release "bu pa bu pa", an attempt to rip off the popular song from chicken little.
tells me two things. she hasn't learnt proper language yet, hence the baby-language in bu-pa-bu-pa... and she hasn't got a iota of creative in her.
and seriously, those who support her are really telling the world that the singaporean education system has failed. i mean!?! how can so many people go buy her CD?! a 5 year old kid screeching can sing better and sing with more depth than her!
oh man.
1. she's way to ashamed of revealing her facing after singing the most ridiculous songs in the century
2. she's actually a music producer's 3 year old daughter. with down syndrome.
3. she's actually so mentally retarded she refuses to let people take pictures of her with a camera as the camera would "capture her spirit"
gee.. you know what really convinced me her IQ is in the levels of negative? the fact that today's newspapers interviewed her about her song title choice and she said "Oh.. since I did a song on mice, I guess the next one would be on cockroaches."
wow. HOW creative. so the next one is on hair lice? bed bugs?
i mean, if my loathing for her was not high enough when she released the asinine "mice love rice" shit, she actually surpasses herself and goes on to release "bu pa bu pa", an attempt to rip off the popular song from chicken little.
tells me two things. she hasn't learnt proper language yet, hence the baby-language in bu-pa-bu-pa... and she hasn't got a iota of creative in her.
and seriously, those who support her are really telling the world that the singaporean education system has failed. i mean!?! how can so many people go buy her CD?! a 5 year old kid screeching can sing better and sing with more depth than her!
oh man.
Saturday, November 19, 2005
let's make a deal...
i'm tired, grouchy and going to sleep soon, considering i need to do a presentation for da-zhuan tommorow.. i'm doing on? iconoclasm... something which I'm not too sure of myself, cos the intricacies and politicking occurring during the Byzantine Christian era sure doesn't concern me...
in fact, sometimes i really feel sad when I read about all the "human-ness" that has gone into the religion, making it so political, so competitive, so ridiculously confusing, making it STAINED. just like salem. just like the crusades... sigh.
but ok, leaving all these religious analysis behind, I must say I enjoyed myself thoroughly today, playing interesting board games at minds cafe...
guess the fun was because we made pretty much the most noise bitching and talking rubbish and trying to form alliances to stop the dominant winner from winning... oh well... haha... was fun trying to broker deals, build pyramids and so on... call it lost childhood... think these days the kids dun even have a chance to play board games...
it's straight into the eye-straining, non-interactive computer games...
quite sad rite? oh well
in fact, sometimes i really feel sad when I read about all the "human-ness" that has gone into the religion, making it so political, so competitive, so ridiculously confusing, making it STAINED. just like salem. just like the crusades... sigh.
but ok, leaving all these religious analysis behind, I must say I enjoyed myself thoroughly today, playing interesting board games at minds cafe...
guess the fun was because we made pretty much the most noise bitching and talking rubbish and trying to form alliances to stop the dominant winner from winning... oh well... haha... was fun trying to broker deals, build pyramids and so on... call it lost childhood... think these days the kids dun even have a chance to play board games...
it's straight into the eye-straining, non-interactive computer games...
quite sad rite? oh well
Thursday, November 17, 2005
i have NO life
i have no life. serious.
it's just wake up, go to camp, work work work, eat lunch, work again, eat dinner, stay in, lose in table soccer, lose in pool, sing karaoke, sleep. and the cycle starts again. bleah.
have been wanting to do lots'a things @ orchard but for a startling 2 weeks.. i haven't even ventured near one shopping center... bleah! wanted to buy a winter sonata soundtrack (to weep over), a pair of Adidas brown sneakers, le coq sportif jacket (that i was so pissed i didn't buy in seoul) and so on so forth...
which means... I should schedule a trip to Heeren soon. =) or queensway.
then i wanna watch shows like "Just Like Heaven" and "Sky High" just for the shallow, "pop" fun of it but the idiot of a linken finds such shows "beneath" him and wants to watch shows of "substance" like "Exorcism of Emily Rose" and "Oliver Twist"... =( seriously i was like that last time, wanting to say as though my taste very high and esoteric, so I only watch artsy-fartsy shows and high-brow stuff that has MEANING.
but nowadays, it's just heck. i can't be bothered. my only purpose for watching movies is to enjoy and have fun without getting frightened out of my wits or hide behind my bag half of the time. neither do i want to spend half the movie trying to justify the cost of it as well as search for some deeper meaning. for that i mean "Lost In Translation"... wah liao.. utter trash.
so well.. i haven't accomplished anything remotely entertaining...
and it isn't supposed to be like THAT! My NS biological clock is slowly slipping into the ORD-half tank mode, where civillian stuff come to take more importance... I'm supposed to start enjoying life aint it? =) i pestered Junwen to send me the ORD clock and was so darn gleeful when I realised i had a whopping 99 WORKING DAYS left. and that is not counting the offs and so on lor! hehe...
i told the TCC2 peeps and we all started stating new rules for this last 100 days.. =).. wake up an hour later... go to work later, leave work earlier... but in the end all of us got so much work no point lor.. =(
still, 99 days IS 99 days ONLY.. =)
it's just wake up, go to camp, work work work, eat lunch, work again, eat dinner, stay in, lose in table soccer, lose in pool, sing karaoke, sleep. and the cycle starts again. bleah.
have been wanting to do lots'a things @ orchard but for a startling 2 weeks.. i haven't even ventured near one shopping center... bleah! wanted to buy a winter sonata soundtrack (to weep over), a pair of Adidas brown sneakers, le coq sportif jacket (that i was so pissed i didn't buy in seoul) and so on so forth...
which means... I should schedule a trip to Heeren soon. =) or queensway.
then i wanna watch shows like "Just Like Heaven" and "Sky High" just for the shallow, "pop" fun of it but the idiot of a linken finds such shows "beneath" him and wants to watch shows of "substance" like "Exorcism of Emily Rose" and "Oliver Twist"... =( seriously i was like that last time, wanting to say as though my taste very high and esoteric, so I only watch artsy-fartsy shows and high-brow stuff that has MEANING.
but nowadays, it's just heck. i can't be bothered. my only purpose for watching movies is to enjoy and have fun without getting frightened out of my wits or hide behind my bag half of the time. neither do i want to spend half the movie trying to justify the cost of it as well as search for some deeper meaning. for that i mean "Lost In Translation"... wah liao.. utter trash.
so well.. i haven't accomplished anything remotely entertaining...
and it isn't supposed to be like THAT! My NS biological clock is slowly slipping into the ORD-half tank mode, where civillian stuff come to take more importance... I'm supposed to start enjoying life aint it? =) i pestered Junwen to send me the ORD clock and was so darn gleeful when I realised i had a whopping 99 WORKING DAYS left. and that is not counting the offs and so on lor! hehe...
i told the TCC2 peeps and we all started stating new rules for this last 100 days.. =).. wake up an hour later... go to work later, leave work earlier... but in the end all of us got so much work no point lor.. =(
still, 99 days IS 99 days ONLY.. =)
Sunday, November 13, 2005
the artist-helper-actor
went for a fruitful faith seminar this weekend where psychological issues were discussed...
felt the best session was the last, where the 9 temperaments of humans was elaborated on, and the speaker talked about how different temperaments would cause friction between couples etc...
there was artist, actor, helper, bossy, peaceble, perfectionist, secure, observer, ... sheesh.. can't remember the last
aniwez, i think i'm the artist-actor-helper sort.. thou SADLY i'm the negative side of all the temperaments.. =(
helper -> likes to help others BUT might tend to be possesive and manipulates others' emotions
artist -> stylish, creative, emotional BUT scornful of other's taste, might be introverted and misunderstood (nah..)
actor -> loud, volunteers for stuff, attention seeking BUT has performance complex, and VERY self centered
bleah.. so i'm the good of artist, everything of actor and bad of helper...
aniwez, i finished my marathon of winter sonata, and i must say i'm glad i invested time to watch it.. wasn't as heart-aching as I expected.. because the love and joy when they were together was pure bliss... haha
i'm envious.. but I guess I'll wait till the correct person pops up... =)
felt the best session was the last, where the 9 temperaments of humans was elaborated on, and the speaker talked about how different temperaments would cause friction between couples etc...
there was artist, actor, helper, bossy, peaceble, perfectionist, secure, observer, ... sheesh.. can't remember the last
aniwez, i think i'm the artist-actor-helper sort.. thou SADLY i'm the negative side of all the temperaments.. =(
helper -> likes to help others BUT might tend to be possesive and manipulates others' emotions
artist -> stylish, creative, emotional BUT scornful of other's taste, might be introverted and misunderstood (nah..)
actor -> loud, volunteers for stuff, attention seeking BUT has performance complex, and VERY self centered
bleah.. so i'm the good of artist, everything of actor and bad of helper...
aniwez, i finished my marathon of winter sonata, and i must say i'm glad i invested time to watch it.. wasn't as heart-aching as I expected.. because the love and joy when they were together was pure bliss... haha
i'm envious.. but I guess I'll wait till the correct person pops up... =)
Saturday, November 12, 2005
good endings
I realised something.
I really like good endings to stories. Same with the Butterfly Effect, same with Stairway to Heaven, the main reason I felt irritated at the end was cos the ending was sad... and I keep thinking what could have been done etc.
even in Winter Sonata, I cannot stand the ending cos it just shows like 5 seconds of them embracing after meeting again after 3 years and that's it. WAH LIAO! KENA CHEATED MAN... U MAKE US SO DARN SAD FOR 20 ODD EPISODES AND U THINK 5 SECONDS OF A HAPPY ENDING CAN PACIFY US?!
I was expecting them to kiss and make up and then slowly get married, go to Nami Island for their Honeymoon where they reminsce the past and then everyone is happy etc... then finally end..
NOT like that. Kena Cheated man. Can they do Winter Sonata : The Epilogue?
I really like good endings to stories. Same with the Butterfly Effect, same with Stairway to Heaven, the main reason I felt irritated at the end was cos the ending was sad... and I keep thinking what could have been done etc.
even in Winter Sonata, I cannot stand the ending cos it just shows like 5 seconds of them embracing after meeting again after 3 years and that's it. WAH LIAO! KENA CHEATED MAN... U MAKE US SO DARN SAD FOR 20 ODD EPISODES AND U THINK 5 SECONDS OF A HAPPY ENDING CAN PACIFY US?!
I was expecting them to kiss and make up and then slowly get married, go to Nami Island for their Honeymoon where they reminsce the past and then everyone is happy etc... then finally end..
NOT like that. Kena Cheated man. Can they do Winter Sonata : The Epilogue?
recap
haven't updated for awhile recently.. hmmm.. been busy? hehe
i still haven't gotten myself to watch the last 3 CDs of winter sonata since I already know the ending, and I dun feel like experiencing the heartache in the next few CDs.. nevertheless, considering that I have to return the CDs on monday, i guess i better watch it tmr then... since there is supposedly some very touchingly sad moments, like when Joo Sang painstaking throws to Polaris necklace into the sea in bid to forgot Yu Jin... wah liao.. how sad is that!?!
oh well.. stop thinking I'm mad.
went out with Lin Ken, Edwin and Alvin, and later Mohan again... i swear if we don't find a new pasttime to engage ourselves in I'll stop coming out.... DOTA is so fricking boring!!! honestly.. it's just a kill, develop, kill, whack towers and end game. restart. rematch. zzzzZZZZZ...
my nick was.. I'm VERY bored. nuff' said... tried to get them to play something else.... tried to get them to like maybe do something else... haiyorhz... the only fun part about playing dota now is to kill off the slutty characters that edwin uses.. ie. Aiustha, Lightning Revenant, Venomancer... the rest of the heroes he uses are condemned to creep-form. u get the idea.
aniwez, days are looking decidedly bleak for me for the next few months despite being so close to ORD... it's like this slack-ORD mood has sunk in into me after me long hiatus and I cannot re-enervate myself to do stuff... so when i stare at the battalion FOE and see the multitudes of exercises... it's really pretty bummerish..
only thing to look forward to is probably all the year end hols and the planning of a europe extravaganza.. can I use my powers of persuasion and coercion (haha!) to get more people going? hehe.. watch and see...
i still haven't gotten myself to watch the last 3 CDs of winter sonata since I already know the ending, and I dun feel like experiencing the heartache in the next few CDs.. nevertheless, considering that I have to return the CDs on monday, i guess i better watch it tmr then... since there is supposedly some very touchingly sad moments, like when Joo Sang painstaking throws to Polaris necklace into the sea in bid to forgot Yu Jin... wah liao.. how sad is that!?!
oh well.. stop thinking I'm mad.
went out with Lin Ken, Edwin and Alvin, and later Mohan again... i swear if we don't find a new pasttime to engage ourselves in I'll stop coming out.... DOTA is so fricking boring!!! honestly.. it's just a kill, develop, kill, whack towers and end game. restart. rematch. zzzzZZZZZ...
my nick was.. I'm VERY bored. nuff' said... tried to get them to play something else.... tried to get them to like maybe do something else... haiyorhz... the only fun part about playing dota now is to kill off the slutty characters that edwin uses.. ie. Aiustha, Lightning Revenant, Venomancer... the rest of the heroes he uses are condemned to creep-form. u get the idea.
aniwez, days are looking decidedly bleak for me for the next few months despite being so close to ORD... it's like this slack-ORD mood has sunk in into me after me long hiatus and I cannot re-enervate myself to do stuff... so when i stare at the battalion FOE and see the multitudes of exercises... it's really pretty bummerish..
only thing to look forward to is probably all the year end hols and the planning of a europe extravaganza.. can I use my powers of persuasion and coercion (haha!) to get more people going? hehe.. watch and see...
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
heartache paradise
17 down.. 3 more to go..
my heart is literally breaking... it's so painful to watch winter sonata because it's just so sad. pointlessly sad yet still so touching and romantic.. i'm truly touched by the show, dun ask me why... but I dun feel like finishing the show.. especially knowing the ending kinda sucks... i dun wanna let my heart ache anymore.. haha
oh well... i think i'm too easily swayed by my emotions... not a good thing there.. now I'm like completely living through Winter Sonata, feeling as though the weather out there is wintertime... and yes.. I'm definately going back to Yong Pyong Ski Resort to relive the moments.. it's.. so beautiful.. and now it has an added meaning to it.
Today has been a bad day. I realised how much work I actually had to do with both my S4 and DyS4 not around. I screwed up at my driving so badly I think I failed every single station at the circuit. And then I went home to realise my parents wouldn't be eating with me.. so I sauntered to the nearby coffeeshop and bought so meagre stuff back to watch sonata again...
sigh.. i'm getting to easily controlled by my emotions.
I shall NOT continue watching tonight.
but hey.. I'm wishing for a romance akin to the teenage first love that Joo Sang and Yu Jin experienced... to play in the snow and express one's heartaching desire... and you know what I love about the Korean drama?
they are so conservative that their intimacy rarely progresses beyond a touching hug or kiss... and yet, the emotions and feelings they depict.. are so much more real and beautiful and romantic than any other American/Western show there is.. it's just.. too beautiful...
oh well.. i'm confused.
my heart is literally breaking... it's so painful to watch winter sonata because it's just so sad. pointlessly sad yet still so touching and romantic.. i'm truly touched by the show, dun ask me why... but I dun feel like finishing the show.. especially knowing the ending kinda sucks... i dun wanna let my heart ache anymore.. haha
oh well... i think i'm too easily swayed by my emotions... not a good thing there.. now I'm like completely living through Winter Sonata, feeling as though the weather out there is wintertime... and yes.. I'm definately going back to Yong Pyong Ski Resort to relive the moments.. it's.. so beautiful.. and now it has an added meaning to it.
Today has been a bad day. I realised how much work I actually had to do with both my S4 and DyS4 not around. I screwed up at my driving so badly I think I failed every single station at the circuit. And then I went home to realise my parents wouldn't be eating with me.. so I sauntered to the nearby coffeeshop and bought so meagre stuff back to watch sonata again...
sigh.. i'm getting to easily controlled by my emotions.
I shall NOT continue watching tonight.
but hey.. I'm wishing for a romance akin to the teenage first love that Joo Sang and Yu Jin experienced... to play in the snow and express one's heartaching desire... and you know what I love about the Korean drama?
they are so conservative that their intimacy rarely progresses beyond a touching hug or kiss... and yet, the emotions and feelings they depict.. are so much more real and beautiful and romantic than any other American/Western show there is.. it's just.. too beautiful...
oh well.. i'm confused.
Saturday, November 05, 2005
i'm getting the wintry feeling...
ok... i'm turning into some crazed addict to winter sonata, watching 5 - 6 episodes at one go today... well thankfully i only borrowed CD 1-4.. or i think i'll be watching till tommorow...
always thought winter sonata was dreary, sickening, and made for aunties...
guess i have to swallow my words now.. it's quite interesting lah, and I guess for me being the sentimentalist, that part of me likes to watch such stuff and get all emotional about the "trysts" in their love adventure...
koreans are good at factoring little twists and turns in their tales and it really makes you wanna keep watching it seems...and they play on your emotions darn darn well, even though the premises are pretty absurd.
oh well.. i'm glad i had this hiatus, though I didn't do much, I realised I'm no longer hopelessly dependent on going out with friends or so on to sustain my cheery outlook on life... and for that I really thank God man...
have to head back to work soon... I'm glad I'm re-energised for this.. hopefully can tackle all the crap problems and enjoy life till the dour reality of having to pass SOC and IPPT sets in... what an escapist i am...
heard from a friend abt a fellow officer who kena charged for faking SOC results... it saddens me deeply. why? cos he might kena decommission for this kind of thing, imagine the crap he went through to get the bar, the joy and emotions he experienced during the time... and it's all sent crashing to the ground.
and seriously? I don't blame him.. (or any of the regulars).. cos the army is like that. they talk all about results and so on, emphasize so much on them and laud it so much that people are forced either by hook or by crook to pass it or else their job is at stake. when seriously, who the heck in command has time to properly train for SOC? I mean, aside from the shit paperwork and coping with a handful of men who give your trouble every other day, from having to do IO reports, plan lesson plans, attend a myriad of meetings and talks.. who has the time to "maintain" whatever glittering results they once acheived?
tell me of one job that places such inordinately hugh amount of importance and value to a non-job related aspect that seriously doesn't quite factor in sometimes man. I think not.
oh well.. i'm griping cos this has been what I've been feeling all the way. And I don't deny this is getting to me as well. All the crapshit about officer having to set an example, to lead and excel... all these are stuff WE emburden ourselves with, WE are afraid to lose our pride in front of our men in case we look less convincing when we next tell them to do well for their SOCs themselves. WE who feel that we must do the best ourselves.
but how to? I suck at SOC. I have no chance to train. Truth is, I'm afraid to train with the rest of the battalion lest they can see how badly I suck. as an officer. It comes down to pride right? too bad it ain't just mine that I'm harming if I flop terrifically at the low wall or what. but what can I do? Do I have another alternative?
I dunno. I just pray for tolerance and understanding. I just pray that my pride will stop being a stumbling block for me even training. It really doesn't make any sense for me to just sit back and escape.
oh well.. escape back to winter sonata that is...
always thought winter sonata was dreary, sickening, and made for aunties...
guess i have to swallow my words now.. it's quite interesting lah, and I guess for me being the sentimentalist, that part of me likes to watch such stuff and get all emotional about the "trysts" in their love adventure...
koreans are good at factoring little twists and turns in their tales and it really makes you wanna keep watching it seems...and they play on your emotions darn darn well, even though the premises are pretty absurd.
oh well.. i'm glad i had this hiatus, though I didn't do much, I realised I'm no longer hopelessly dependent on going out with friends or so on to sustain my cheery outlook on life... and for that I really thank God man...
have to head back to work soon... I'm glad I'm re-energised for this.. hopefully can tackle all the crap problems and enjoy life till the dour reality of having to pass SOC and IPPT sets in... what an escapist i am...
heard from a friend abt a fellow officer who kena charged for faking SOC results... it saddens me deeply. why? cos he might kena decommission for this kind of thing, imagine the crap he went through to get the bar, the joy and emotions he experienced during the time... and it's all sent crashing to the ground.
and seriously? I don't blame him.. (or any of the regulars).. cos the army is like that. they talk all about results and so on, emphasize so much on them and laud it so much that people are forced either by hook or by crook to pass it or else their job is at stake. when seriously, who the heck in command has time to properly train for SOC? I mean, aside from the shit paperwork and coping with a handful of men who give your trouble every other day, from having to do IO reports, plan lesson plans, attend a myriad of meetings and talks.. who has the time to "maintain" whatever glittering results they once acheived?
tell me of one job that places such inordinately hugh amount of importance and value to a non-job related aspect that seriously doesn't quite factor in sometimes man. I think not.
oh well.. i'm griping cos this has been what I've been feeling all the way. And I don't deny this is getting to me as well. All the crapshit about officer having to set an example, to lead and excel... all these are stuff WE emburden ourselves with, WE are afraid to lose our pride in front of our men in case we look less convincing when we next tell them to do well for their SOCs themselves. WE who feel that we must do the best ourselves.
but how to? I suck at SOC. I have no chance to train. Truth is, I'm afraid to train with the rest of the battalion lest they can see how badly I suck. as an officer. It comes down to pride right? too bad it ain't just mine that I'm harming if I flop terrifically at the low wall or what. but what can I do? Do I have another alternative?
I dunno. I just pray for tolerance and understanding. I just pray that my pride will stop being a stumbling block for me even training. It really doesn't make any sense for me to just sit back and escape.
oh well.. escape back to winter sonata that is...
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