choices

man! summer has really just blown past and i'm now like in the mid-term of summer school with work piled high and prelims looming ahead. -_-

oh well i deserved it. i kinda played played played way too much dota and zelda till the point i woke up from a dream thinking i was in hyrule castle. -_- haha ok time to switch gears and earn my worth. =)

u noe i kinda wonder whether my this current attitude towards things actually does me good. like last sem i was hell bent to make the most use out of my time in summer, get a job, get a research, fill my time up etc..

yet, when it came to the crunch, i mostly dun wanna fill my time up. i wanna be able to relax at home, play wii, chill with frens, go six mile creek, play tennis, watch the pros from the other courts play tennis and wistfully wondering when i can ever (if possible) be as good etc.

i have this idea that life is too short to just frantically work away and slog away for that elusive goal of cluttering up one's resume or just to make one's standing better when he/she comes out into society. not that being self motivated or self driven is wrong.. but.. hmmz.. maybe i'm just making excuses for being slack, but i kinda think that's not really the path i want. =)

oh wellz.. that being said, i still needa get work done. so back to the books (for the first time in weeks... hmmz)