these clothes have feelings

today after doing laundry i had one HARD look at my closet.

sigh.. then i started counting the number of fashion missteps and wayward buys i made, and all the more I feel like calling a garage sale and selling all the crap i have amassed in just one year of frivolous shopping in the USA. and no, i'm not a shopaholic. you see, IF i were a shopaholic, then shopping alot would mean my buying skills would improve. since they still kinda stink, well.. i'm NOT. or i'm just a lousy shopaholic. which sounds worse.

aniwez, most of the errors spawned from the fateful frenzied day at woodsbury where time was so tight and I was just like crashing into stores to get like the necessary winter items.

when i say necessary, i think i meant a-bit-ugly-also-can-forgive. which on hindsight, kinda means ugly-until-i-won't-wear-it-the-next-season. -_-.

geez, let's count.

1. one ugly fcuk jacket that i was estatic at chancing upon cos it was so cheap. hmm, the hoodie is too small (makes me get headache) and the sleeves are slightly short. plus it's ugly. with a capital U.

2. a denim jacket from CK. i think the brand CK kinda sealed the deal for me at that point. yah.. and i have worn it a grand total of like.. 4 times? cos i think i cannot coordinate it with ANYTHING since most of the times i wear jeans of that tinge. -_-

3. the hideous monstrosity of a bright traffic-light red big overcoat. honestly, i think i was slightly crazy when i bought it. oh.. i remember, i started panicking cos i couldn't find a SINGLE decent jacket in woodsbury cos north face and stuff were sold out. so i settled for a "different" style, nautica orange jacket. which i dare not reveal unless I go like snowboarding and its absolutely required.

ah heck. i'm not going to like recount all these crap. it's really disappointing for one.. i think it kinda teaches me a few lessons.

1. never EVER shop on a tight schedule. even if it means you do not get a winter coat, you still can get it other ways, eg. online.

2. try, try, try. spend like 10mins in the fitting room and ensure you want to live in those clothes. -_-

3. do not think woodsbury is like the mecca of all shopping and delay buying anything till then. cos it ain't that great. for a great point, the quiksilver jeans i bought there have gotten a ripped look thanks to their poor quality. geez

oh well.. i'm supposedly going woodsbury again next saturday. THIS time round I'm going to window shop and REALLY take my time at stuff.

geez.

i'm still writing..

i kinda think i've lost my writer's inspiration.. maybe it's too much darnded essays.... but heck, i'd write whatever comes to mind. =)

i kinda realize i like teaching stuff.. ok maybe not really teaching, but explaining stuff to people and like understanding it better in the process? I kinda quite enjoy my AEW sessions already because I feel like I am actually doing something useful.. lol.. it's like some childhood desire of wanting to be the teacher, setting questions, teaching stuff and so on.. yeah.. it's kinda quite fun actually.

hmm, other musings? after reading ziyang's blog and seeing his resolutions.. yeah.. i wanna make it my own resolutions as well... get to know more non-Singaporeans, get to know more non-Asians, and yah, just be more sociable. lol..

i noe some of you all reading this must think i'm siao and think i'm already sociable and talk too much already but.. hmm i think i'm like the adapted sociable person.. like i need to feel comfortable and assured before i actually socialize and start talking. which made the first year quite frustrating and difficult, in terms of making more non-sg frens and just being more open.

it's the situation we're in also i guess. like i'm surrounded by singaporeans throughout my lesson and it leaves no gap for others to sit around, discuss questions etc.. i dunno, i somehow feel we're in like a bubble amongst ourselves.. wonder if that's what others think about us as well..

so yeah.. i think i really quite screwed my dorm living, ending up closing my door most of the times, just not socializing (partially also cos i can't stand partying till the wees hours and being crazy..) but yeah.. hopefully this sem i can like put down the wariness and just reach out, talk to more people and stuff. i mean, that's also part of uni life..

alritey.. i'm gonna kunz now.. it's soon time to study for that miserable crap called 202

poetic

waiting impatiently for Survivor:China to begin

getting really nervous about ece 303.

loving the song hosanna by hillsong united.

i take back what i said about my literature class. well, it seems like today something struck me when I read about Annie Yung and how she went crazy in trying to transform herself into a cowgirl and just adopting various cultural artifacts to mimic the stereotypes she desired.

how true. sigh. why judge others by the stuff they wear, things they say, bags they sling, attitude they try to pull off? just as we start viewing everyone in a one dimensional way, tagging them from their outward look and then assessing whether they're worth our interaction, we become one dimensional ourselves.

and we stop to seek for the true person lost amongst the cultural objects and commodities. have i become like that at times? hmmz

zaza's

today was paintball. and i didn't go. lol. yeah, part of it was cos i wanted to save money, part of it was cos i told everyone i didn't want to soil another set of clothing, and part of it was just.. inertia. lol

oh wellz, i think paintball is somewhat a once off experience liao can liao kind of thing. but wah, i spent the time agonizing over my FWS essay and having brain block. shit man. i realized that not all FWS are created equal (lol). my first FWS was a gem of a find la, with the writing style completely complementing mine. now this FWS demands me to like investigate a simple text in depth and like find itsy bitsy information to conclude something applicable to real world. -_- sheesh man, reminds me of why i hated literature. this over-analyzing and self-indulgent behavior of thinking that there's of so much worth going into some portion of text, when i could have just blabbed out utter shit because I felt like it in that exact moment

yeah, can u imagine if people tried to analyze what perspective i adopted whilst writing this blog entry. laughable man.

aniwez, i'm spat enough writer's venom. today was damn nice cos we (meaning me, josh, ian, cherie, cindy, marvin, sheryl) went to zaza's to eat!!! wah.. VERY NICE!!

the creme brulee was fluffy and just right in terms of custard sweetness
the lobster risotto was not too tomato-ey and not too thick, and the shrimp and lobster bits were just heavenly.

too bad i forgot to bring my cam. sigh. couldn't do my favourite pastime of taking pics of my food.

ahh.. great company, great food, what more to expect? =)too bad mr ian is going to stanford to study liao.. haha

career fairs mania

hmm.. seems like the whole internship/career fair thing has swept across campus.. career fairs are pretty draining affairs to me.. first you have to wear up nice nice and make a good impression, then its all the extroverted-ness you have to muster, then its standing around and waiting in line to hand in your resume, missing lunch and a couple of lessons at that. geez

aniwez its really opened my eyes wide wide. companies like abercrombie and fitch(!), microsoft, google, morgan stanley etc.. WAH.. its quite cool to pick up their brochures, ask them about their internship products and so on. it makes you really really wanna get an internship.. hehe

aniwez, i saw some really cheapo people milling around koping like millions of stuff from the booths, ranging from P&G toilet rolls (imagine that!) to tons and tons of bags and gifts from various companies. honestly.. kiasuism isn't really an sg trait lor.. all the singaporeans i saw dress nice nice, act demure and distinguished and really seriously talk to those recruiters lor..

well aniwez all this talk makes me feel like my resume sucks big time. geez.. time to pump in more effort into making my resume better. =)

henin style

watching henin win the US open was nice, especially after last year's disappointment.

and straight away watching, we headed down to hnh and played hours of badminton trying the henin style. lol. damn seh.

arrgh.. school's so bleak. =(